Heartaches

Nurul, you have to move on. 

Reality bites...and doesn't let go.

Empty Decorations

I wake in the dark
With showers of life
Moments of emptiness around
Floating away
No other hope
Reality brings me

Into the ground
What can I do
What can I say
I need a place to hide away
Just for a while, just for a smile
Just for a life I used to know

The perfect song were filled with
Words of love and not with anger
What if they go
What if they leave me far behind
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'Cause I don't wanna be alone
Living life for on my own
I don't want to live my life in isolation
Filled with empty decorations
'Cause I want to be with people that I know

Who would do the things I do
Making all my dreams come true
I don't recognize the shadows at my door
Though I've seen them all before
Because the only thing I really want
Is to be with you
I'm laying in bed listening to this song repeatedly. one of the song that makes me calm, happy, and lively. I'm wondering if there is any chance for me to have what i want. I cant only wait for the miracles. I'm afraid to lose You. I live to make other people happy or even happier than me. People never know me. I am not what i ought to be. Sometime its hard to smile just to make others feel better. I like fake smile 'cause i know how the way they feel just to create a smile in front of others. pretty cool yeah. 


I just want to lay on my bed and don't ever ever try to wake me up.